In a bid to find Happiness.

My trademark question in camp years back was "Happy bo?" All my close friends will instantly know its me whenever I call them as I'll ask them with the same question,40 times a day.I had great times when I was in camp,living the life better than any W.H(white horse).Actually finding hapiness and thinking positive is seperated by a fine line,in my point of view at least.
Someone once said,to make a million,start with $900,000.Some people never have the chance to see huge amounts of money in their life,so if they have $900,000,they will be overjoyed and happy.But if you're born with excess of $900,000 in family fortune,you'll be thinking of how to churn out even more,to reach Forbes rankings.So in a way,these people will not be happy until they reach their target.But hey,this is a dream/goal,its not finding happiness.Even when you do,its all about sense of achivement,not happy.

Thinking back,I think I will really be happy if I could turn back time and stop everything from happening,love and care for those that have already left me for good,my grandparents,my uncles,my cousin and my girlfriend,(I really miss all of you).Rather not have the two Doberman dogs as they spent half of my childhood with me and left too.Not commit all those stupid mistakes that landed me in trouble with the law.Times when I really caused upsets to innocent souls around me.Times when I turned my back to those that needed help and concern.Times when I was such a jerk,and the times when I decided to oppose those that gave me golden advice.

I know deep down,things that have happened cannot be revived.But these incidents leave such a deep impression in me.I admit I'm emotional,thats why I'm being embedded in these memories.I seek for eternal happiness now,rather than just gorging myself with my favourite foods and buying all kinds of materials that I liked.
Everything can be mended or repaired or forgiven,but never forgotten.Scars remained,places stay the same,memories linger forever..Happiness is when you can actually forget everything,just like a small child,when you grow up,childhood past aint that clear anymore,and when things aint clear,you wont bother pondering about it..