Purpose of Life...

Sometimes I just think and ask myself,why do I live in this world?Who do I live for,what do I live for?Life is only a cycle of birth,living and death.No matter what or how well you do,its either you leave a good or bad name in history for years.

I used to be very obessed with control,wealth and having fun.But after a spate of misfortunes and sickness happened,I think I dont need the above mentioned in my life.I just need air,my family and food to get by.Someone told be being simple is happy.And now I've done it,though I always have the lastest updates on the most happening places in Singapore,I've toned down lots compared to the past.

Love for me is still outta the question,why get bothered by such things,even if I can go all out for a lady I will love,but we wont end up well,because I believe in retribution.I daresay and admit that I've hurt many gals in these recent years.But now that I feel the guilt,I know my retribution will be near soon..I'm prepared for it,but I dont rush it.And no,I'm not into gays either...

Being single have its perks,but so does being attached,when you actually have the full support and concern from someone always beside you,doing things that only the selfish yourself enjoy,but she/he still as your company,you are equivalent to striking a jackpot.Sure,I'm a very open-minded coming to relationships now,I can let you do whatever you want,you can even cheat on me,I wont check your hp or what,just dont let me know,cos once i do,whatever I would do will greatly depend on my level of aggression at that point in time.

Till now,I can still say I didnt try to use violence on any girls.Someone will beg to differ,but that's your problem,I dont get pissed off without reasons,a shove just because you're drunk and tugging at me doesnt makes me happy.I'm a guy,but never a henpecked one.I only ask for things to happen right,and not asking you to do bombastic things,so why go to the extreme.. ??
What the fuck if I'm a great lover/bf,can I be a good husband next time?Can I provide and guide my children without them following in my footsteps ?? All these remain to be seen,but still only god can judge me.

I wont even twitch if you stare at me for an hour,cos I wont go over and confront you,now things bothering me are,do I need to pluck my next wisdom tooth?How can I invent a simply heavenly dish to present to the world?How can I help those that need help?I'm seriously not bothered about,who is being beaten up,who needs a loan,who is the most gung-ho racer in town recently...all the illegal things can actually just leave me out,cos I wont be intrested,I even stopped punting on football..

In the end,no matter what happens,you'll still die,and worse,you been senile for 10 years before you die,or die in a hospice cos your children wont give a damn about you.It will,cos our thinking have changed,everyone just wanna stay with their own spouse and fuck all day...pardon my usage of words but its true..now no couples comes to buy any household products,cos they dont wanna stain that expensive Teka stove or Ariston cooker hoob.

And putting your own parents and grandparents into hospice for them to do their personal countdown alone would be the ''in'' thing to do,everyone will be doing it,why should we be different ??Anyway fuck you deep if you think like that,I would seriously hope you'll die while eating your favourite char kuey teow..I told myself,if you cant get along with my parents then I will never be with you,not my parents are wicked,but just that all my girlfrens always wanna have their own flats,own space,without their in-laws..Sorry lor,but I cant do it,I rather sacrifice my marriage to take care of my parents..

So all and all,actually life cycle is really stupid and till now,no one can convince me how to actually embrace life with pure happy thoughts,not positive thoughts,its pure thoughts,means you dun even have to think positively..No one from Dalai Lama to Bible to a 2 year old kid.

Take care of your aged relatives !!! Dont abuse them !!! Care and concern makes you a better person !!!